oh no!

it was a rude awakening. i heard his voice...is it true? could it be him? i opened my eyes. oh fuck! it was a familiar face but it wasn't him. then an old familiar feeling ran through my body. how could it be that after 8 years it's all coming back to me now?

i knew it...i made a mistake. why on earth do i have to dig into something that was well kept under the ground for so long? i don't understand. i am confused. why would i want to hurt myself all over again? why would i want to ride that rollercoaster ride again when i know that it has more and bigger loops now?

it is the mouse's fault. i have to stop now. i don't want this overwhelming feeling again. i can't. it's too much trouble. i'm fucked...again. tangina