damn it

damn this internet. woke up in the middle of the night west coast time. i am still on east asian time. checked some blogs and more. why did i ever surf for articles about mr. oh? he is all over the internet. hmmm....must not think about him. must not.

an article read: In the Quick-8 heads up class, it was MR.OH who took home the win aboard his Mitsubishi Eclipse posting a 13.1 second pass dispatching DL's nitrous fed 13-second BMW M3 on the final round. Other Quick-8 qualifiers were MT, DM, TT. FC, DL’s Nissan Skyline.

wait...i remember this eclipse. he used to talk about this car.

a website read:
Project sponsor and major shareholders of project company
The sponsors of ABC are listed below. They are also the major shareholders of the company. PUDGY, Chairman of the Board (1.74%) -Mr. Pudgy has over 20 years of experience in the areas of technology and software design. He was one of the founders of PI and an early stage investor and serves on the Board of Advisors of I, Inc. Mr. Pudgy was formerly Director for e-commerce at S Microsystems in Asia-South. Mr. Pudgy spent 10 years at the Somecountry National Computer Board where he was Head of Planning and Communications for the Somecountry Government Computerisation. Currently, Mr. Pudgy runs Fresh Fries Pte Ltd, an e-commerce incubator in Somecountry. Mr. Oh, Chief Executive Officer/Member of the Board (24.87%) - Mr. OH has 19 years of work experience in the United States and in the Peterpiper in banking, technology, property, manufacturing and trading. Mr. OH was CEO for XYZ Allied Industry from 1993 until early 1997. He also owns and runs the Peterpiper Off-Line (POL) partner in Ceylon and Wonka Wonder. POL is a traditional ISP, serving individual and small businesses in Ceylon. Wonka Wonder is a small chain of Internet cafes located in Molina and Ceylon. The Oh family is highly respected in the Peterpiper with several members of the family having held public offices (former President, Senators, and a former Governor of Ceylon). TG O, Member of the Board/Chief Technical Officer (19.48%)- Mr. O has over 10 years experience in the field of engineering, management, and finance. Mr. O is currently Managing Director of Glowinthedark, a civil engineering firm based in Somecountry. Mr. O's father was President of Somecountry and retired from politics in September of 1999. RS. W, Member of the Board/Managing Director USA (25.3%) - Mr. W has founded five companies in the San Francisco bay area in the financial and technology fields. His core business is a California Certified Public Accounting firm, which has completed international transactions since 1980. His other active companies are in the computer systems and design area. He is also a cofounder of a business valuation firm, which values businesses throughout the United States for merger, acquisition, estate, and litigation purposes.

hey! i know these guys! i almost met Mr. O before when i was in Somecountry but was too lazy to go out of the hotel. Mr. W on the other hand is the old guy whom he used to talk about all the time. they became friends when he was still in his teens. hmmm....i wonder what these guys are up to.

stop surfing the net!

makes me wonder...is he really a flirt? i know for a fact that flight attendants from different countries fancy him. does he flirt around inflight? i'm damn certain he is well aware that is is v. good looking. a towering heart throb. he has this inner regalness in him. makes a lot of sense, his great grand father was the president.

he once mentioned to me that we were related. huh?! even got the time to trace our roots amidst running his companies and travelling around the world?

wait. i need a man. i can't open my freaking bottled water! help! i have to admit it...women can't live without men. and guys on the other hand loves it when they are needed.

i used to miss his calls though. and sometimes he would show up in the hotel...wherever that is. the world was our playground.

i'm serious now. i need to open my water. i woke up in the middle of the night. jetlaggin'. why in the world did i not bring anything to eat? why? and this is the only time that i could not muster any energy to go out and have dinner with my friends. gullible and gulliver.

gullible is my friend from way back. met him through my ex-bf. he was actually the best friend of my ex. now he is mine! mwahahahaha!

gulliver is a jewish room mate of my friend gullible. he was the director of the counterpart of Ralph Lauren. until last december...well that's another story altogether! maybe next time.

i'm in manhattan jetlaggin' got nothing to eat. poor me. tom i shall feast! i hope chaty will give me call tom. we are going to watch "Journey to the center of the earth" whatever that is. i know i heard it somewhere. i am soooo outdated. i have not seen a good movie in years! what is wrong with me? haaaaayyy....

uh oh

monday the whole day i set my mobile phone in silent mode. at 6:30pm i decided to switch it back to it's normal mode.


as if on a cue i suddenly got a msg...


mr. oh sent me a text message. the usual pleasantries...

hello. (wasn't i just thinking about him the other night?)

how are you? are you in molina? (i wasn't...hmmmm....wonder what if i was)

but this time around his tone was different (as if i could hear his voice).

been having dreams me you (wow!)

Funny huh? (maybe because i was thinking about him the other day)

what were you thinking? (i was actually thinking about him and his friends because i met some of his friends in china recently. pudgy - a HEC teacher and Wharton proffesor teaching negotiations worldwide. lanky - a retired ex-alcoholic...living in china and receiving money from his company in the U.S. monthly. china boy - student of pudgy in hong kong whom was entrusted to him by boy's parents. a funny bunch. pudgy tried to fish for whatever he can get from me. lanky said he has been hearing about me. china boy has been a helpful translator esp. when bargaining)

I don't really have friends. I'm pretty much a loner (fine if that's what he said)

How are the kids? (they're good. i love the little one)

then there was a long and deafening silence.

How are you? how are things? (i've been so so) how can he be so so if he is having an affair? heard it from a reliable source. maybe i heard it wrong. maybe he said "i've seen a soso"?

What do you mean so so? (i just try to get by. so many things in my mind)

Like recession and stuff like that? (like the kids. they are all i live for)

Why? Are you ok? Remember I am always here for you. (Really?)

uh-oh! that didn't come accross the right way. he sounded like he got excited. maybe he thinks i still like him or that there is something there that wasn't there before? hmmm.....

what is your .hue and .gli i will call you (huh?! say what?)

I'm sorry (what is he saying sorry for? is he even talking to me?)

sorry for what happened 10 years ago (now that's a major problem! i can't remember what happened 10 years ago! that is like a decade my dear! hmmm...lemme think...broke his heart or broke my heart? i really can't remember. can someone pls remind me of what happened? anyone? please?)

It's okay. We learn from our mistakes

can i call you tom? (let's see...can he call me tom? nope! i'll be going to new york tom)

uh-oh...did i get myself into trouble again? have to know his intentions. how did i sound when i said i am here for him? hmmm....men...they will hear what they want to hear and think what they want to think. this guy was everyone's crush back then. regal. v. regal. bumped into him not too long ago. he was going to attend a seminar at wharton. feelings? nothing.

now i want to know what made him send me a message. was it the constant nagging of pudgy? i know he likes me. i know he thinks i am better than the girl from molina. whatever!

My kind of flight

As a flight attendant of an asian carrier my flying life is repressed. There are so much pent up emotions that each of us hold as we try to appear genuine with that pasted smiles on our faces.

Now this would be my dream PA announcement:

Ladies and Gentlemen, we would like to apologize for any inconvenience due to the delay of this flight. There is nothing you can do anyway, so let us just all be merry, don't be grumpy and quit complaining. It will save you a lot of Botox money.

Our flight has been delayed due to technical problems. Please wait for further announcement for an update of this flight's delay. Unless you'd like to fly with a broken landing gear...(Flight attendant looks around) you do have a choice...whoever wants to go on and fly with broken landing gears please raise your hand. (looks around and sees no one raising his hands) okay. I take it that we are all willing to patiently wait. Thank you for your patience and understanding.

inflight:

"Please open your tray tables now as we are about to serve the meals (making the announcement so loud that even the passengers who are sleeping will wake up and listen). All of you who wants chicken raise your hand as the FAs reach your row. For fish just keep your hands down and keep quiet. No sudden movements please. As it will distract the concentration of the FAs.

We only serve water, orange juice and apple juice as it is good for you. We would recommend you however to choose water because it has zero calories. As the FAs reach your row and hand you the trays make an "O" sign with your hand for Orange juice, an "A" over your head like when you spell YMCA for Apple juice and for those who want water just keep your hands down.

Upon collection of the trays we ask you not to stack up the components altogether as this will make our lives harder. All leftover liquids must be poured on the coffee cup or inside your main course tin container. If it is full, please ask your seatmate if you may pour your liduids on his.

Please do not stand up and go to the toilets until after we clear your trays. We ask you not to give the trays to any of us since we won't have space for that in the galleys. If you think you are helping us by leaving the trays in the galley, you're wrong. This makes the galley unaccessible and cluttered.

Please be nice to the FAs because they handle your food with care. You'll never find out what goes behind that curtain!

Please calculate the time if you are going to the toilets. It should be anytime before the meal service so that you will not have to squeeze through those narrow aisles with food carts blocking your way and up to 10 minutes before landing. Those who miscalculate will risk holding their business or doing it on their seat.

Ladies and gentlemen we have just landed safely, thanks God. Pardon the terrible landing of the Captain though. Please don't panic, we are still on earth. You have not met your Creator yet. (whispers) Good thing I have nine lives.

This is not a race. So the passengers at the back I'm telling you now "there is no chance for you to be the first one to get off this plane. I repeat, no chance. So quit trying.

Thank you for flying with us and making our lives easier. Happy and helpful passengers means happy crew. Happy crew means safe flight. (imagine if you were the crew in an emergency landing...would you save a nasty passenger who just shouted at you?)

Just one more thing before you go. Please leave the overhead lockers open when you get your bags because we need to open that anyway. And if you feel like opening the others as well, you are more than welcome to do so.

Ensure that you have all your belongings with you before you go. More often than not, after passengers come back and look for their so-called "missing stuff" which is actually just inside their bags or companion's bags the whole time.

Thank you for flying with us and have a good evening."

envy

envy is poison. a poison that flows through the veins of your soul. it seeps into the crevices of your being. it leads to destruction of bridges and trees that holds your wholeness upright.

to the enhancement of your existence no contributions are quite apparent. the demons in your mind amazingly perform wonders. i hear not the bees. (this was written when i was drunk)


(now that i am sober)

envy can smell the weak of heart. sniffing and lurking in the dark like a hunter in a camouflage. it will suck the light out of you. climb the comforts of your senses.


i pity you, you envious bitch. seeing your eyes travel through unsuspecting dumb people who they think they know you. unlucky you that i have an eye. unlucky me that you live close by. i warn you though...cross the line and you'll get a taste of me.


i will just count the days from today and from you i will stay away. it's time to weed out unwelcome entities. like the car you will be outside my bubble where real people flourish.


ta tah!