uh oh

monday the whole day i set my mobile phone in silent mode. at 6:30pm i decided to switch it back to it's normal mode.


as if on a cue i suddenly got a msg...


mr. oh sent me a text message. the usual pleasantries...

hello. (wasn't i just thinking about him the other night?)

how are you? are you in molina? (i wasn't...hmmmm....wonder what if i was)

but this time around his tone was different (as if i could hear his voice).

been having dreams me you (wow!)

Funny huh? (maybe because i was thinking about him the other day)

what were you thinking? (i was actually thinking about him and his friends because i met some of his friends in china recently. pudgy - a HEC teacher and Wharton proffesor teaching negotiations worldwide. lanky - a retired ex-alcoholic...living in china and receiving money from his company in the U.S. monthly. china boy - student of pudgy in hong kong whom was entrusted to him by boy's parents. a funny bunch. pudgy tried to fish for whatever he can get from me. lanky said he has been hearing about me. china boy has been a helpful translator esp. when bargaining)

I don't really have friends. I'm pretty much a loner (fine if that's what he said)

How are the kids? (they're good. i love the little one)

then there was a long and deafening silence.

How are you? how are things? (i've been so so) how can he be so so if he is having an affair? heard it from a reliable source. maybe i heard it wrong. maybe he said "i've seen a soso"?

What do you mean so so? (i just try to get by. so many things in my mind)

Like recession and stuff like that? (like the kids. they are all i live for)

Why? Are you ok? Remember I am always here for you. (Really?)

uh-oh! that didn't come accross the right way. he sounded like he got excited. maybe he thinks i still like him or that there is something there that wasn't there before? hmmm.....

what is your .hue and .gli i will call you (huh?! say what?)

I'm sorry (what is he saying sorry for? is he even talking to me?)

sorry for what happened 10 years ago (now that's a major problem! i can't remember what happened 10 years ago! that is like a decade my dear! hmmm...lemme think...broke his heart or broke my heart? i really can't remember. can someone pls remind me of what happened? anyone? please?)

It's okay. We learn from our mistakes

can i call you tom? (let's see...can he call me tom? nope! i'll be going to new york tom)

uh-oh...did i get myself into trouble again? have to know his intentions. how did i sound when i said i am here for him? hmmm....men...they will hear what they want to hear and think what they want to think. this guy was everyone's crush back then. regal. v. regal. bumped into him not too long ago. he was going to attend a seminar at wharton. feelings? nothing.

now i want to know what made him send me a message. was it the constant nagging of pudgy? i know he likes me. i know he thinks i am better than the girl from molina. whatever!