isn't it too late for Halloween?

I thought dead people are not to be seen again until the second coming of Christ??? Then can someone please explain why do I have to be notified of sightings of someone that I buried so many times already? Just the other day I received a message from the mouse that it saw the dead came to life at the mall. How could that be possible? And why did the mouse see the dead person there? Could it be that it was in the spirit of Halloween? But Halloween has been long gone...it’s been more than two weeks already. Well, I just shrugged my shoulders and said “Oh well...sometimes people...like warts keep on reappearing.” Hahaha!!!

This is what makes it worse...this morning as I was attempting to clean up the attic and organize the mountain of clutter...I found my way to my old training manuals and paper clippings. I was excited, surprised, shocked and afraid all at the same time when I found a compilation of songs that I was fond of at one phase in my life. The songs were:
Before I fall in love
Dreaming of You
Strong Enough
To my astonishment on the fourth page was a transcript saved from an ICQ log last November 15, 1999... exactly 9 years and 2 days from today. Just before my Paris flight last Nov 13, my proverbial signs started appearing once more. I tried to brush it off...I saw one or two more in Paris...I really cannot remember because I didn’t want to pay attention anymore. I felt like if I ignored it...it will just go away. But no...this transcript reopened old wounds. As I cannot cut and paste the whole thing here, let me just explain what was the gist of the whole conversation.

I was chatting with my boyfriend at that time and it was all about how he was apologizing for not telling me that he was still attached at that time that we were going out...it was the first time that I found out about it. The chat log showed how I was so trusting and so unaware of the series of unfortunate events that awaits me. I would be a hypocrite if I was to say that I didn’t get “kilig” while I was reading it. It brought me to that certain time 9 years ago. I was so sure of myself and I looked at him as a shy and not-all-that kind of guy. I underestimated him when I measured him as someone who is not capable of turning my world upside down. If you were to read the log...it showed how I was still so in control of my feelings. We were still new then that’s why...but things happened so fast so soon with us. It was like a whirlwind that struck me like a deadly tornado. It was so fast and it cut so deep.

What made me shake my head was the promises that he made to me...men...why do they have to complicate our lives? Now, what? I hope to not see any more signs or more so sightings of him. Let me be in peace...or chaos...whatever suits your fancy...just let me be...