what's important?

do you jump for joy when someone gives you a car? do you feel elated when someone gives you a house? do you get all excited when you see actors, singers and other performers? i don't...what's wrong with me?

it was kinda scary when it happened to me...i realized i was different when my dad gave me my second car. the first one was exciting. the second one was like nothing...i would liken it to your parent giving you your allowance. i have to know if i am normal...if this is a normal reaction of someone who receives something of value. it's not that i don't value the things that was given to me...please don't get me wrong but it felt like it was "no big deal". are you like that too?

in college i would entertain some of the entertainers before they would perform at the school fair but i never got starstruck. i am trying hard to remember if i was ever starstruck on someone. i would get conscious when i'm talking to certain people but not to performers. politicians has the capacity to do that to me and one normal person but i still wonder why up to this day.

when i lost something dear and expensive last christmas season, i got sad simply because i was meaning to give it to my daughter. but when i came to think about it...it was just a thing. i find it weird that it is to my advantage that i don't see the value of things when i feel like it...it is disconcerting at the same time because does it mean then that i don't value things?!

it is hard to really tell the value of things...is it the price? is it the sentiment? is it the way the society values it that you are supposed to follow? tell me because i really don't know. sometimes when you are bombarded with so many things in life and so many choices...you lose the real essense of what is valuable. so tell me please...